Bed Rest....

Last Saturday started out great. We went to a friends house for a bar-b-q and Brian was able to play a game of D&D. Around 6pm that evening I started to have contractions and told Brian I think we better go to the hospital to make sure everything was ok. Turned out things were not alright and I was transferred to another hospital off post just to be on the safe side. Once there I was admitted for observation. We called one of Brian's friends to come and take Iain for the night before I was transferred (so at least I knew my little boy was safe and away from all the drama that was happening to his mommy). I hardly got any sleep that night. Sunday morning we (Brian and I) were told that I was being discharged that was at 10 am but we were still there at 4:30 in the afternoon. When we finally signed the discharge paperwork the nurse informed us that the doctor wanted me on bed rest (which kinda sucks for me because I'm at the stage in my pregnancy that all I want to do is get my house in order or most commonly known as nesting). I was also told that I need to see my doctor as soon as I could (good thing I already had an appointment set up for that Tuesday).

I saw the specialist Tuesday morning and she told us I was on modified bed rest. Which means I can get up to go the restroom and get my own food. I can't stand or sit for too long, no lifting or pushing anything heavier than 10lbs, and I'm not suppose to chase after Iain and to try and lay on my left or right side.

Well, I can tell you this is really hard to do. I'm going crazy. I want to go on walks and play outside with Iain or heck play in the house. I don't know if I can do this. I just hope I don't go on full bed rest or heaven forbid hospital bed rest I just might scream. Please keep our twins and family in your prayers. We really need to keep them where they are for at least 7 weeks (which gets us to 36weeks) but we are hoping 11 more weeks (which gets us to their due date).

*I left quite a few details of things that transpired on Saturday because I just don't want to write about them.

Update...

If anyone does read our blog you are most likely sick and tired of reading about this pregnancy. But this is also my journal in a way.

So at my last appointment with my ob-gyn on base (at 25weeks 6days). She said that I had dilated to 1cm, everything was fine, the babies were still high and I wasn't thinning out at all. She also told us that baby girl had her head in my pelvis and that baby boy had his head up and under my right lung. She told me to take it easy and put my feet up as much as I could. She also wanted to see me every 2weeks at this point.

Fast forward to this past Thursday. I had another appointment with my ob-gyn on base (I was 27weeks 6days). My doctor said that I was dilated to between a 1cm and 2cm and 50% effected (or thinned out). Little girl is still head down and her head is still in my pelvis (so not comfortable for me). And little boy had moved. His head is now in between my rib cage with his butt under my right lung. Both babies are still high. She said to stop physical therapy and not to exercise in anyway. She wants me to take it easy and put my feet up as much as I can (can I just tell you that is super hard to do when you have a toddler to take care of). She did say that message therapy is ok to do and I can go swimming.

My husband has been so good to me since we found out we are expecting twins and has really gone above and beyond to help me out. He works so hard for our family (being in the military is not always easy). Since I've been so sick he has really done everything that he could around the apartment and takes Iain off my hands so I can rest. When my doctor said that I had to stop physical therapy (and saw how disappointed I was) he went and made an appointment at Message Envy and even got me a member ship so that every month I can go and get a message. How sweet is that. I love my husband so much.

Iain has even started to try harder to go on his potty. I can't believe how big he has gotten. He is so excited for his baby brother and baby sister. His 3rd birthday is in 8weeks and he is so very excited for it.

I'm excited to see what this year brings our way.

So we are thinking...

That we may have a house built here in El Paso. We are praying and fasting (well I'm not fasting b/c of being pregnant). We haven't made a decision yet. But we are hoping that we can come to a decision by mid to late March. Our lease is up in July and the people at the model home were saying that it takes 3 to 4 months to build a house. So we'll see if it is the right time. I would love to be in a house of our own where I can choose the paint colors for the rooms and we can get a pet if we want. We just don't know if we should while we are here or wait.

While we were looking at the model homes, Iain was just so happy to be looking at houses. He doesn't seem to like living in an apartment (I can't say that I blame him for that one). He kept asking Brian and I if we were moving into one of the houses. And when we said no that we were just looking at them he would pout and get all quite. I think we would all be happier living in something other than an apartment. As nice as it has been to live on our own in our apartment neither Brian or I have been to happy with management. Or the way the walls are paper thin. We also dislike that people will yell at each other in between buildings and curse at one another all hours. I hate going to the playground (I was so excited that there was on not 5minutes from my front door) and finding glass bottles and beer cans all over the place. I really don't like the disrespect that some of the kids show an adult (I asked some kids not to throw sand on Iain when he was playing off by him self with his sand toys. They turned around and called me the stupid white woman). These kids were 5 or 6 years old and where were their parents, oh no where to be found. This is just a few of many reasons we are looking to get out of here.

So we are going to start praying and fasting about this starting this week.

Thing I love...

Ok lately I've done said more negative things about this pregnancy than I ever thought I would. But there are quite a few things that I do love about it.

It's true this pregnancy has been far from easy but every pregnancy is different.

I love that Iain is so excited for a baby brother and baby sister.

I love that he kisses both of them when ever he gets a chance.

I love the fact that Brian is so over the moon excited for twins.

I think it's funny when Brian says that he has to learn a whole new set of rules because we are having a girl.

I love that I'm getting both a boy and girl. I can't wait to hold them in my arms.

Iain is going to be the best big brother to his new babies.

I'm so excited that we are getting not one but two new members of our family.

I love the fact that we are a forever family that we will be together always (even the 5 we lost).

Feeling two new people move is surreal but I love knowing that they are safe and healthy.

Love the fact that my body is capable of carrying not just one but two babies, it amazes me every day.

I may hurt and hate puking but hearing my husband say that he is more in love with me because I made him a daddy puts a smile on my face.

Knowing all this makes the pukey days that much easier to deal with.

I'm almost 26weeks along and hopefully 14 more to go. Here's hoping that they stay where they are till than.

Back room is almost empty of stuff

My parents said if we cleaned out the back room they would get us another crib and double stroller for the twins. So Brian and I made a goal of cleaning and going through all the boxes in that room. We are almost done. I have to re organize my craft stuff and finish going through all the boxes that have books in them that are in the closet. Than we will be ready to start setting up the nursery for the twins. I pretty excited that this time I get to decorate a nursery. I wish I had had a chance to decorate a nursery with Iain.

Potty Training pit falls....

So we have been trying to get Iain interested in potty training but as far as we had gotten was him sitting fully clothed on his potty. We came to the conclusion that he just didn't like his potty seat so we went to Babies 'R" Us and let him pick one out that he liked. Well that still didn't get him sitting on it without his clothes on. A few weeks ago that changed and he asked to sit on his potty without his clothes and diaper. We were so very excited. He has been doing that for a few weeks now but he wont do anything while sitting on it. I've tried everything and still nothing. I'm at a lose as to how to get him to go on the potty. I seriously need advice and help with this.

Iain is so sweet

So yesterday afternoon, Iain and I were in my room and he saw my phone. He very sweetly asked if he could play the puzzle game. As a baby we taught him to sign a few things, one of the signs we taught him was please. Well, he never did get the hang of doing the sign the way the book taught you, he just runs his hands up and down on his chest for please. So he while he was saying "Momma please may I play the puzzle game. Please momma puzzle game." He was signing please. Of cause I told him yes. Right after I said yes he looks at me and said "See Momma I use my manners. I have good manners."

Brian and I have mean working really hard on teaching Iain manners. I was in despair that it wasn't working. We are really good about praising him when he does use his manners. So when he said that do me yesterday it was like it finally clicked for him. I guess we are doing a good job with this whole parenting thing.

I'm so proud of my little boy. And watching him turn from a baby to a big boy is amazing. I can't wait to see him with his little brother and sister.

Pregnancy/family update

So about a week ago, the specialist I'm seeing said that the babies were measuring bigger than average. I asked her what she meant by that, the doctor's reply was not what I expected at all. She said that if they were to come early (which she thinks they will) they could be anywhere from 7-7 1/2 lbs. (Which if you think about it is really good for preemies. But my mind went what if they come on or after their due date, does that mean I could give birth to not one but two babies that weight 9lbs or more. That would kinda suck (I mean hurt). As long as they are healthy we'll handle whatever happens.

I'm still puking but at least I'm gaining weight not as much as my ob-gyn (the military doctor) wants me to gain 70lbs but I've gained 7lbs after losing 25lbs. So she's not to happy with me but oh well they are growing and are healthy, so oh well.

I'm carrying them a lot lower than I carried with Iain. So my lower back and hips are always killing me. I seriously want to die from the pain. This past Saturday I couldn't move because my hips hurt so very bad I would cry or scream every time I moved. So it made it a whole lot of fun to take care of Iain and myself while Brian was playing D&D with his friends from work.

My ob-gyn put in a referral in to our insurance so that I can go see a physical therapist for my back and hips. So my first appointment is a week from today. I hope that this will help.

I'm just excited that this pregnancy has gotten this far and that despite all the puking, lack of weight gain and the pain. That the twins are going to be joining us some time this year and are family will go from 3 to 5. As hectic as things will be and how very tired I'm going to be (am) that there will be to more sweet babies to kiss and cuddle. To watch smile and giggle. Iain will have not one but two siblings to play with and to learn with.

I can't say that I'm super excited to be so tired but I love watching Iain and Brian around babies that it will be all worth it. But things are going to be so much fun around here when they finally get here.

Iain is such a big helper and so very sweet. He loves to use his manners and is so very kind. Though he is typical boy, rough and tumble. He is my big tough teddy bear. Loves to kiss the babies good night after he says prayers at bed time. Finally showed an interest in potty training after months of asking him if he wants to sit on the potty. Iain loves bath time. Playing outside. He still loves going to nursery every Sunday. He is so very smart and such a talker, story teller, and little singer. I can't wait to see him with his brother and sister.

Brian, is now working night as a night baker. So he is able to attend PT in the mornings. Than he comes home to sleep for a few hours. He has a group of friends from work that he gets together with every week-end to play D&D with. It's a great way for him to de-stress from work. I'm glad that he is able to play/hang out with his friends because it makes him happier and more willing to help me around the house while I've been so sick.

Hopefully, I'll do better at blogging this year but who knows. I will try.

It's the end of January...

I just realized that I have yet to post anything this year and it's already the end of the month. I still have to post about Christmas and New Years (but later hopefully).

I'm 23 weeks and 4 days into this pregnancy with our twins. I can't believe how fast its gone by. According to my doctor the twins could come anywhere from the end of March all the way to their due date. So I'm kinda stressing about getting stuff done around the house. Like the last of the decorating and organizing, setting up the 3rd bedroom as a nursery/craft room (b/c its a little bigger than the master bedroom and Iain's room. The master bedroom has a bathroom so that's the trade off there I guess). But right now the 3rd bedroom is kind the catch all room. I need to clean would few girls clothes I do have and put them away. I would also like to make so freezer meals for after they get here.

I have completed some craft items for our little girl. I made her coming home blanket and some little dresses with hats. I'm working on her blessing dress (its really going to have a full skirt, I'm crocheting it). As soon as that is done I plan on making her brothers blessing outfit.

But the list of things that I have to finish making/working on is so long but it will be done before they get here.

Hopefully the things I'm stressing about goes away so that I can just enjoy the time I have left with Iain as an only child. Here's to hoping...right.

Hate being sick...

On December 9th, we went on a marriage retreat that the Army was doing, it was in Ruidoso New Mexic0. Well I soon as we all got back Iain and Brian caught a stomach bug. Iain has had it since than. And now I think I'm getting it. My poor little boy can't seem to kick this bug.

Out numbered still....

We found out this morning that Baby A is a BOY....And Baby B is a little girl. Brian and I are over the moon about our new additions to our family. Both are healthy and right on track growth wise. So, I asked Brian how he felt about having a little girl and he said that he had to learn a whole new set of rules. I laughed so hard when he said that.

The Holidays are here....

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So who is ready. I for one am not in the least bit ready.

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Pregnancy = kicking my butt

So this pregnancy has been so very different from my pregnancy with Iain. I was totally unprepared for morning sickness and extreme fatigue. I knew that I would be tired but this is ridicules. I get so extremely tired 2hours after I wake up that it makes it so very hard to do anything with Iain. The morning sickness just wont go away. Every one said that it I should be over it once I got into my second trimester, but I guess its the difference between a single and and twin pregnancy. But it is totally kicking my butt. I really hope that I have a little more energy by next week (so I can actually make Thanksgiving dinner, my first time. And I would like to spend an enjoyable visit with my parents while they are here).

Update...

• Brian and I found out in September that we were expecting (again). And than the next week I started to spot and had some cramping, so we went into the ER. Where the ER doctor ordered an ultrasound and everything was okay. The only thing that was out of the ordinary was that there were two babies. I was shocked (well to be honest I'm still shocked) and Brian was (is) super excited. I'm 14weeks along (the farthest I've gotten since Iain). Have had 2 ultrasounds since our ER visit. We have another one next week (and if the twins aren't too shy we may be able to found out their genders, just in time for Thanksgiving and my parents visit).
• Iain is no longer a baby. He has gotten so very big and I can't believe how much he has changed since we moved to Texas. Not only how much he has changed physically (he is almost 38lbs and he is 3'4" tall) but how independent he has become. Oh and his imagination has changed. He also talks all the time. He has even started to say the prayer without being prompted by Brian or me. His prayers are just so funny sometimes. (I'll post them later).
• Brian is now working nights from 7pm-6am. He is on the Thanksgiving team. He loves it.
• Brian's parents were just out here to visit us for 5days. It was nice to have them to come and stay with us. Iain loved have grandma and grandpa here to play with. He sure became grandma and grandpa's boy while they were here, he didn't want them out if his sight. He was always asking "where grandma and grandpa?, "I want grandma and grandpa". And he was always showing off for them. Well they were here I was no longer the favorite. But I'm okay with that, it was nice to get a little extra rest. I don't know who was more excited to be here, Marlene or Darrel, I think it was a tie between them. While they were here Marlene and I went to get a pedicure well the guys had Iain. It was nice to just have a girls day (even if it was only for a few hours). We showed them around base and El Paso.

Potty Training...

So I was thinking I might start potty training Iain at the end of the month. What books and movies to you guys recommend using? Iain will be 2.5 in October and I was hoping that we could have him potty trained my Christmas or his 3rd birthday. I would like to save the money we spend on diaper and wipes. Do you have any suggestions or advice would be great?

We are in Texas

We finally moved out of my in-laws house at the end of July. Brian called me the Monday before we moved to tell me that he found an apartment and was ready to sign the lease and get things moving. He also said he hoped to be in Colorado by Friday night. Well I was in no way ready to move (I had not finished packing our stuff yet). I told two of my really good friends (sorry I don't use names unless I have asked them before hand) that it looked like we were leaving at the end of the month but I needed help packing. One of them set up a packing party and even said that she wanted to throw a farewell party. So the Thursday before we left a bunch of our friends came to the house to help me pack. We were packing for 6 hours. And got all but the last minute stuff done. I'm so thankful for friends and family that helped that day. If it had only been me I don't think I would have gotten it done. Brian got in last the next night. Saturday morning a few people came over to help bring everything up stairs and to stage it on the lawn before we picked up the truck. After we finished staging everyone left but told us to call them after we picked up the truck. We did and between my husband and brother-in-law and two others we got everything onto the truck. Sunday morning we finished all the last minute things packed on the truck and our van than we were off. We got a much later start than we had planned but oh well stuff happens. Darrell drove the van while we drove the van. Iain wanted to ride in the truck with grandpa so we let him. We drove till about midnight and just couldn't go any longer. So we stopped for the night in New Mexico. And left early the next day to drive the rest of the way. We finally got in and started to unload the van and truck. We left most of the stuff on the truck till the next day. And we explored the area. The next day we called the missionaries in our new ward to see if they could come to help us unload. They come over and we were able to get everything off the truck and into the apartment. Than the real fun began. Oh unpacking is so much fun. I think I like unpacking less than I like packing. But oh well I love being able to use my own stuff and having my our house. Its great.

So Sunday is the day...

As a few of you know Brian and I have been trying to have another baby for a while now. Gotten pregnant and miscarried more than once. So we (I) started going to see a specialist and after the tests for run and the results came in, the doctor's advice was that we try Clomid. Brian and I talked and prayed about it, so we told my doctor that we wanted to try the medication for a while. She also told me that she wanted me to go on a higher dosage of the Clomid. So I'm on a higher dosage of this medication and Sunday is the first day that I supposed to start taking it. Here's hoping that the medication works the first month. Here's hoping and praying.

Waitting to sign a lease...

So Brian found us an apartment. Its 15minutes from the base. Which means Brian was able to attended the ward that we will live in the bounders of. We are going to be the newest members of Hondo Pass Ward of The Church Of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. Brian is going to see if the apartment complex has a 4 bedroom because he said he thought that he read somewhere that it did. But if not there is a 3 bedroom and 2 bathroom with a washer and dryer. We are just trying to get all the paper work together so that we can get the ball rolling. He won't be able to come out here to get us till he is done with in processing which could take up to another week (or more) than he has to wait till he gets the all clear for the DDY leave. So we are looking at August till we are together again. And can start setting up our home together. But the best part is Iain will finally have his own room for the very first time. I actually get to decorate a room for my little boy. Its not the nursery that I wish I had been able to do for him but a big boy room. He says he wants a Thomas the Tank Engine room. Maybe one day I'll get to decorate a nursery. I'm just so ready to have our stuff out of boxes and out where we (and our guests can see it). Decorating our home the way I want to. I'm really looking forward to it.

Babies grow up

So I cant believe that Iain has gotten so big over the last few months. He is talking up a storm and doing more and more by himself. Iain is even understands that we are moving to Texas (though he say to the airport on a plane. Its super cute). His loves Disney's Cars and Thomas the Tank Engine. Everything is either about Queen or Thomas. He loves to say nap time and bed time prayers. Favorite books right now are Hand Hand Fingers Thumb and Stop! Train, Stop! Playing in the dirt and sand is more fun than anything else in the world. I love my boy who is getting so very big each and every day.

So...We are in limbo

So Brian left for El Paso last week. He has been looking at apartments to see if one of them we are going to call home. He is coming up empty. Either they are too far from base, don't have washer and dryer hook ups, or are just plain on the wrong side of town (we're talking scary part of town). This limbo kinda sucks. I hate being separated from Brian again. I really don't like sleeping alone. And on top of that I'm in pain from a minor car accident the day after Brian left. So I'm in a little bit of pain. (ok you see we just traded in our car and got a 2006 Saturn Relay mini van. And while driving it around the side view mirror was almost taken of my car. Oh I finally have my drivers license and yes I know I'm 27 1/2 years old but better late than never). So I was pretty shaken up about it and yes I know it really could have been worst and I'm glad that Iain wasn't in the car with me. So being in pain I need help but I have to be the mom and moms don't get a sick day. But I was that Brian and I were together so that he could help with picking up Iain and any thing that is 2lbs (the doctor I went to told me not to left anything heavier than 2lbs). So life kinda sucks and this being in limbo is even worst. I can't wait till we are a family again.